Mushy mushy emotional stuff

[ailbhe]

Sometimes, I just have a lot of love floating around at random. I just sort of Love, undirected. It feels just like when I love someone, only without the specific someone. I'm likely to attach this feeling to any pleasant someones in my vicinity when it happens.

It's a nice feeling; it makes me grin while I walk down the street. It gives me energy. It doesn't need being loved back to maintain it, though it does fade if I get too tired or hungry.

It happens more often now that I'm pregnant. It happens often when the light is clear, rather than foggy.

Some people have been intimidated by the way I just sort of go ahead and love. Some people find the fact that I tell people that I like them, when it's clear I mean in a non-romantic way, either scary or risible. This is only briefly embarrassing, because likingness and love feel so nice that I keep doing them.

Perhaps I'm a freak.

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Another freak chimes in

[hopeforyou.livejournal.com]

I've felt a general surge of love inside of me during certain moments in life. Often when I'm alone and watching a sunset, or hearing a beautiful piece of music, or the temperature and wind being just so when it hits my bare skin. Sometimes it happens out of the blue, for no known reason at all.

I would like to cultivate the ability to call that up any time. I think it would do well to be more compassionate towards others if I could hold onto love in general, and not limit it to a distinct handful of people I am intimate with. Not that my love would be as intimate to strangers...but the depth of my compassion would show through my actions towards them when it's motivated by love.

Don't know if the above made sense...I'm on a Buddhism kick lately and it's colouring everything. But I think so far this is a better shade than the darkness I have been in.