Mushy mushy emotional stuff

[ailbhe]

Sometimes, I just have a lot of love floating around at random. I just sort of Love, undirected. It feels just like when I love someone, only without the specific someone. I'm likely to attach this feeling to any pleasant someones in my vicinity when it happens.

It's a nice feeling; it makes me grin while I walk down the street. It gives me energy. It doesn't need being loved back to maintain it, though it does fade if I get too tired or hungry.

It happens more often now that I'm pregnant. It happens often when the light is clear, rather than foggy.

Some people have been intimidated by the way I just sort of go ahead and love. Some people find the fact that I tell people that I like them, when it's clear I mean in a non-romantic way, either scary or risible. This is only briefly embarrassing, because likingness and love feel so nice that I keep doing them.

Perhaps I'm a freak.

Comments

[wandra.livejournal.com]

Well if you are, then so am I.

:-)

[browngirl.livejournal.com]

Maybe you're gifted. :)

A.
approvingly

Re: Mushy mushy emotional stuff

[pir-anha.livejournal.com]

if that's freaky, then i wish the world were populated by freaks.

i think a lot of people might be scared by it because they might think that it requires something from them in return. in my experience, the better somebody knows me, the less likely zie's freaked out by it, because zie'll know that's it's just an overflowing, pure feeling, that doesn't need any return.

i think it's cool to feel that way. i feel it a lot more about nature and animals than about humans, but i am glad i feel it about humans too, because too much separates us as it is.

Another freak chimes in

[hopeforyou.livejournal.com]

I've felt a general surge of love inside of me during certain moments in life. Often when I'm alone and watching a sunset, or hearing a beautiful piece of music, or the temperature and wind being just so when it hits my bare skin. Sometimes it happens out of the blue, for no known reason at all.

I would like to cultivate the ability to call that up any time. I think it would do well to be more compassionate towards others if I could hold onto love in general, and not limit it to a distinct handful of people I am intimate with. Not that my love would be as intimate to strangers...but the depth of my compassion would show through my actions towards them when it's motivated by love.

Don't know if the above made sense...I'm on a Buddhism kick lately and it's colouring everything. But I think so far this is a better shade than the darkness I have been in.

[radegund.livejournal.com]

No, not a freak. Mush on!