What pushed me over the edge today

[ailbhe]

At the swimming pool, an acquaintance looked at me in my swimsuit and commented to the woman she was with, "Look at that - don't you just hate her? I'd love to be that thin."

I failed the politeness test. I said "It's easy, just get so sick you can't cope with your daily life. A serious virus. Lots of people find cancer works. YOU try being ill, I'll try being overweight." Then I went into the cubicle with my children and cried.

My eldest daughter asked if I get smaller will I still be able to lift them? Will I shrink to the size of a baby?

My youngest daughter said "No Mama cy, Mama, aw-ite Mama."

I apologised to them for crying. And I stayed locked in the cubicle until the women went away.

Comments

[thereyougothen.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you spoke up, but i'm sorry it made you cry. i think i'd be more comfortable to hear someone saying "i'd kill to be that thin" than "don't you hate this actual human person for it" probably becasue no one would really kill for it, but they might direct some misplaced hate. i'm so sorry you had to hear that.

i only ever tease one friend, and she's always in the gym, and jokes about being thin herself, she is happy and secure and a mother of four. maybe I should think about that though.

but jesus, what if you did have cancer or some other illness (well, actually, you do, don't you)? not that cancer made *me* thin, chemo did quite the opposite, but hey - you know, you really can't have it all...

[ailbhe]

Right now, I don't have a specific illness which makes me thin, but in general, I have trouble not getting so thin that I get ill. This is not, apparently, an illness.

I have in the past been so ill I lost 20% of my mass in two weeks.

I was congratulated.

[thereyougothen.livejournal.com]

*coughs* people are funny about weight. my mum saw me eating chocolate after my surgery, where some of my abdominal fat was used to replace my breast tissue, and said I should be careful or I'd put back on all the weight i'd lost in hospital.

i hope no one says that to me again, becasue i still don't have a good answer for it.

i think I laughed. which was better than she deserved that day!

[trizia.livejournal.com]

My Mum is like that. She's never been able to get above about 8 stone, and she was 5'6" before age started shrinking her. Now she's likely to get to 7 stone, and has on occasion been classed as medically malnourished. But nothing has ever been found to explain it, she just can't put, or keep, weight on.