Fear

[ailbhe]

Sometimes, I am absolutely terrified that one of the children is dead in her bed. It's quite hard to go and check, sometimes, in case I'm right.

(This hasn't happened today, but I wanted to state it, somewhere. Presumably it's one of those fears that either goes away or not. I desperately want my all children to outlive me, though I know plenty of people who have survived the death of a child and logically know my own life would go on, somehow.)

Comments

[batswing.livejournal.com]

I think nearly every parent I've ever spoken to has had the fear of their child being dead at some time. I can't imagine how horrible it must be. It's bad enough fearing other people might die let alone your own child.

I'm glad it hasn't been there today for you.