It finally happened

[ailbhe]

I hit Linnea.

She's fine, I'm in shock. Alarmingly, I entertained the idea of asking her not to tell anyone for several seconds. There is no justification for it - it wasn't necessary, it wasn't helpful, it wasn't rational - I just lost my temper and didn't stop myself.

I think she forgave me quite quickly. Part of me is relieved; I'm getting this blasted, blasted implant out in a week anyway, and I've been dreading the possibility of losing my temper for months, and now I have, and she's ok with it. She was shocked and angry, which is good - she wasn't afraid or guilty-feeling.

Apart from being briefly shocking, it didn't much affect her behaviour for good or ill for the rest of the time before nursery.

I want to go to bed and cry.

Comments

[griffen.livejournal.com]

What they said.

[micheinnz.livejournal.com]

Yep. What they all said.