Smoking

[ailbhe]

Since I quit smoking, almost exactly three years before Emer was born, as soon as I thought I might be pregnant with Linnea, I have never once regretted my decision. I had, after all, been trying to quit for most of the time I'd been a smoker.

But sometimes I really, really miss them. I watched a woman in the cafe rolling a cigarette from a brand of tobacco I never even liked and I wanted it. The smell of ready-rolled does mostly make me slightly queasy, but even now, after two pregnancies, I sometimes enjoy the smell of real tobacco.

This is presumably the nature of things - when one gives up an enjoyable habit, however sensibly, one wistfully wishes to indulge in it just once more.

But me and smoking are not like that. I can't have just one. If I have just one, I will have many, many more.

But I still want them, sometimes.

Comments

[gloriap.livejournal.com]

I quit smoking about 30 years ago after having smoked 10 years. I can honestly say I don't miss it a bit and the smell of cigarette smoke (unlike pipe smoke) is horrible to me. We did buy a pack of cigarettes and have a few every New Year's Eve for a few years after we quit because it seemed strange to drink w/o smoking.

Strangely, however, I LOVE the smell of a wooden match being lit.

[flybabydizzy.livejournal.com]

Strange about the wooden match, I know just what you mean!
I smoked 2 cigarettes one evening about 30 years ago and was ill for a couple of days; I've never smoked since. The smell makes me heave and wheeze. An extreme reaction to smoke was also a symptom of early pregnancy for me - even a diagnosis, one time.
I am currently preparing to redecorate my daughter's bedroom, as she has moved away. She was a 'secret' smoker - she thought I didn't know. Her room, her clothes and even her books all stink, so I have to limit my time in her room.
My addiction is cheese; which, as I am intolerant of milk products, is not useful! I avoid it as much as I can, but every now and again I will have a slice of pizza, or attack the block of strong cheddar in the fridge.
I don't think there is a 12 steps program for cheese.