Sophie's Choice

[ailbhe]

Last night I saw a clip from the film "Sophie's Choice" and it really ruined my night. I cried myself to sleep, in spite of reading Georgette Heyer to take my mind off it, and slept... stressfully.

I've only just stopped obsessing about the whole thing myself; before I got antidepressants I'd lie awake at night trying to work out whether, if trapped in a mass grave awaiting gunshots, it would be better to hold the children up so that they could be shot cleanly, or to try to hide them under the bodies of the adults so that they could get out alive.

The inside of my head is not a nice place to be. I'd like to be out of it, please.

Comments

[niallm.livejournal.com]

We can imagine the worst, as well as the best, and this is the gift and curse of imagination. Knowing what people are capable of, in extremis, is useful, and is uplifting, and a burden.

Thankfully no such situations are currently affecting either your or my family, so we can turn our minds to such useful things as worrying about whether or not we will be flooded in ten years time with global warming, the global economic consequences of an attack on Iran, etc etc.

[mssociallyinept.livejournal.com]

That's something I could see myself laying awake at night tormenting myself over too... "would it be better to let them be killed or to try my hardest to save them for them only to be emtionally and psychologically scarred by the experience for life?!".

Inside heads, in particular females, are not nice places.

[pauamma]

I've never been inside a female head, so I can't tell, but I'm not at all sure the average male head is a less fearsome place. (I know some of the stuff in mine is probably on a level with the dilemma ailbhe described.)

[perceval.livejournal.com]

Me three - it seems to be some weird things hormones do to you ...

[sashajwolf.livejournal.com]

*sympathies* I worry about this kind of thing, too. I couldn't finish the novel, and will probably never watch the film.

Ahh the 3am's

[velcro-kitten.livejournal.com]

I do this on waking in the night, obsessively. Also I have our escape plan if "the balloon goes up" worked out in my head (hightail it to Wales to live on top of a mountain with my In-laws)

Sophie's Choice

[(Anonymous)]

I saw Sophie's Choice when it came out and I couldn't leave the cinema for a while after the film ended because I had cried so much. I've never seen it again since and won't.
Daphne xx

Re: Sophie's Choice

[ailbhe]

I will never watch the film nor read the book. The thought of it makes me feel sick. Actually doing it might make me suicidal.