Work was not so good

[ailbhe]

I think I may be forced to tell people that they are redundant soon. I don't know what to do about this. What can I do about this? I don't want to do this. Can they make me do this? Do I have the courage to quit? I know that we have too many staff and that some people have to be moved, either within or outside the company. But I don't want to do this. If I start chipping away at the team I will never be able to build it up again - I simply don't have that kind of personality. Why did I have to apply for a job I didn't want just because I thought I'd be better at it than the other applicants? Now they could be going through this instead of me.

And to cap it all off, I was so upset yesterday that I got horribly drunk and spent hours talking to a couple of my team about my sexlife and the fact that I haven't had a libido for easily six months, probably more.

Phooey. I give up.