Line in the sand

[ailbhe]

I've decided that I am just not going to accept "hitting children" or "physically assaulting children" as something grownups can't help doing. If I'm losing my temper that badly, I need help. I have a list of excuses, reasons or triggers as long as anyone's arm, but that doesn't make it ok, and I am allowed to insist that no-one persuade me that it's actually ok to hit children sometimes.

I really, really don't want them to grow up thinking it's ok to hit children "if you're cross enough" or something. I don't want them to fight the same urge to hurt I have to fight.

Also, I want everyone to breathe properly so I can get some sleep, please.

Comments

[the0lady.livejournal.com]

That sounds a lot better. "Something needs to change because I'm over-worked and miserable" is more reassuring to me than "something needs to change because I'm a terrible person who's done n unforgivable thing to my child". I guess I worry that you're beating yourself up counter-productively.

[the0lady.livejournal.com]

PS I see from the thread that I'm not the only one who interpreted "I need help" as "I need a psychiatrist" not "I need a babysitter"... Personally I think a babysitter would be more help! And also coming out for dinner with me like you keep promising. xx