Line in the sand

[ailbhe]

I've decided that I am just not going to accept "hitting children" or "physically assaulting children" as something grownups can't help doing. If I'm losing my temper that badly, I need help. I have a list of excuses, reasons or triggers as long as anyone's arm, but that doesn't make it ok, and I am allowed to insist that no-one persuade me that it's actually ok to hit children sometimes.

I really, really don't want them to grow up thinking it's ok to hit children "if you're cross enough" or something. I don't want them to fight the same urge to hurt I have to fight.

Also, I want everyone to breathe properly so I can get some sleep, please.

Comments

[hobbitbabe.livejournal.com]

I agree with you that it's not okay, and that your children shouldn't grow up thinking that it's okay.

I think you are a good person, despite fucking up, and I worry about you. I worry about you more than I worry about your children, actually.

And yes on the breathing. I found the video terrifying; I can't imagine what it must have been like in real time in the middle of the night.

[ailbhe]

That video is the breathing that wasn't so scary. The scary bit was bad enough that I didn't even consider not waking her long enough to video anything.

[hobbitbabe.livejournal.com]

Wow.

[ailbhe]

Yeah.