Heavy

[ailbhe]

This morning in bed I reached a state of mindless heaviness which was utter bliss. I was absolutely still, had no thoughts other than observations on my physical state (honestly, this is not usual for me, three or four trains of simultaneous thought plus continuous self-observation is more normal), and felt very heavy, as though the heaviness was pressing me firmly down in bed and preventing me from moving. I don't know whether I COULD have moved, because I didn't want to try. I sort of tried to go back to sleep, in a passive way that was more like allowing myself to go back to sleep if that happened, which it didn't.

Then the feeling went away.

I hope it happens again.