I seem to have lost myself somehow

I don't read any more - and don't write - and I don't even make poems, I haven't since all that nastiness in the Loos years ago. I have painted a little for the last two days, so that's something.

It's all part and parcel of being so exhausted and feeble all the time. But I don't really know myself.

I was reading http://pomes.dreamwidth.org/ today, and reached http://pomes.dreamwidth.org/46338.html and realised I MISS it. I'm not sure how to restart though.