Illin'

People really don't seem to understand my current level of unwellness. I can walk a couple of hundred yards but I have to rest. I shower sitting down most of the time - I celebrate being able to shower standing up, but I did it unwisely the other day and had to lie down afterwards for a rest. I have developed strategies for keeping the children amused and fed, and they seem to get plenty of exercise though could probably use more.

However, I walked almost a mile without significant pain on Friday, so it's possible. Just not terribly likely.

It's making Christmas a big, big deal. I'm having to plan extremely carefully so that we can get everything the children expect as a tradition (Christmas pudding trivial and could be skipped or bought in, Christmas trifle very very important to get right). I'm not sure when I'll get the energy to take them all into the town centre but it had better be soon; we have birthday and Christmas presents which have to be bought *by them* not by me.

I think I have a plan, but it's tricky, because if I can't walk, the plan won't work, and I never know until I wake up how bad my knees will be.

FOOD

I've cut out gluten as well as dairy and soy, and I've had massive vitamin D supplements, and my joints and digestion and migraines are all much better. And I'm not starving all the time; today I wanted to eat something like biscuits but also wasn't even slightly hungry, which was downright weird. I've been hungry most of the time for, um, ever, it feels like. Except just after a meal. Often hungry and feeling too sick to eat, since my early teens.

But not now.

Gosh.