Some wonderful things happened today.

[ailbhe]

I'm still s******* - I think it's ten days now, with three days of serious problems? - but good things happened today.

I ate porridge with preserved sweet cherries for breakfast, and shortly afterwards, I felt sleepy. And I went to sleep. I actually felt sleepy. Sleep was nice.

After I woke up, I felt hungry. Not "I felt faint and remembered I hadn't eaten for hours," but I felt hungry, in my tummy.

So I cooked all the bacon in the house - it was about to go out of date - and fried a couple of eggs in the bacon fat (Linnea doesn't eat eggs these days) and heated up some tinned beans. And we had lunch, which I finished off with a couple of clementines. Then I felt tired and sleepy again, and I think I spoke to Rob, and he got someone to come over so that I could sleep.

I didn't actually sleep that time but I got some valuable rest, with Astrid sleeping beside me.

And then I was hungry again.

I've had no panic attacks at all. I've had s******* thoughts, and Rob is going to get rid of the huge pile of paracetamol tablets he has on his bedside table, because uh-uh, no way, and he came home earlyish because he was a bit worried about me, so I also feel a bit more looked-after.

And three friends phoned me, and one got off the phone as soon as she realised I was getting sleep without me having to explain or anything, and one is coming over tomorrow morning, and one came over today. I love my friends.

Comments

[supermouse]

I'm really glad. Not about the thoughts, obviously, but the fact that you seem to be climbing out. *hugs*

[nitoda]

I love that you have friends who love you and who are available when you need them. And that you are strong enough to ask for help when you need it. Also glad you were able to sleep and eat and feel better as a result. Thinking of you.

[trizia.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[the0lady.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you've had a better day, and that you're getting some adult interaction and human contact. Hang in there.

[trinker.livejournal.com]

YAY! Your care providers (by which I mean the people who prescribed your meds, and any psych providers) do know about your current state, yes?

I'm so glad you have local resources. Yay, friends who can drop by.

[maryrcrumpton.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to read what you have been going through. Please know that you are in my thoughts. I don't claim to know your pain, but I have walked a similar path myself in the past, so I can and do empathise.

I am glad you are feeling more looked after and loved. You are such a lovely person - I wish you good things, and happier thoughts, in the days to come.

If a few days away from home would help at all, then you (and as many of your family as you wanted to bring) would be very welcome at our house. We have spare beds.

Also, because I work from home, I am around during the day, if a listening ear would help at all. Call me on 07751 696 055 and I will call you straight back.

All good thoughts to you,

Mary x

[taimatsu]

It's ok to phone you? Pff, wish I'd realised! So glad some good things happened - I hope you start to actually feel better soon.

[ailbhe]

In some ways SMS is simpler, but not all ways. Receiving phonecalls isn't as difficult as making them.

[taimatsu]

*nod* I wasn't thinking of inundating you with calls or anything :)

[piqueen.livejournal.com]

Go you!

[nicnacpaddywac.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you have people locally to help support you. Gentle {hugs} and i'm thinking of you.

[hilarityallen.livejournal.com]

Glad you're getting help, especially with the eating and sleeping. But I've also been there, done that, got the t-shirt and it SUCKS. You're keeping very positive. Many good wishes going the way of you and your family.

[hilarityallen.livejournal.com]

Just realised I may have come across as rather too flippant; didn't mean to be so, and as before, good wishes.

[rosefox]

I'm very glad you're feeling more looked-after, and occasionally hungry and sleepy. Yay for food and Rob and friends.

[barakta]

Glad there are glimpses of goodness is the difficult stuff. Sending yu and your family lots of love and am thinking of you all.