Children who hit

[ailbhe]

My mother swears she was never hit by any of us after we were two.

But we can remember doing it. Not much, like, but hitting one's mother is a bit of a Big Deal and sticks in the guilt-ridden memory somewhat.

I wonder will my journals prevent me from rewriting the children's pasts? Or just alter how I rewrite them? I know other parents who swear they never smacked their children, with similar contradictory child-memories.

Comments

[rmc28]

I'm well aware at times that I am "remembering the story I have told myself", especially if I am talking about things that happened in the two years after my son was born, when I was particularly sleep-deprived. I'm still mildly sleep-deprived and my memory is noticeably better now than it was then, but nowhere near as good as it was up to my mid-twenties.

Also I remember things we did before the baby and find myself thinking "but who was looking after Charles?" before remembering he didn't exist yet.