Brain weasels

[ailbhe]

So first, I feel ill - faint, migrainey, headache, queasy, exhausted, weak, shaky, loss of appetite. So I assume (a) it's not real. When I can no longer assume that, I assume (b) it's due to stress or hormones, which is practically not real. When I motor on through the not-real illness until I am actually lying helpless on the floor while the baby crawls up to me at intervals and takes milk, much as she might if I were unconscious and having my toes nibbled by rats, I still assume it's too much to ask someone to come home for until I speak to myself very sternly indeed.

And then, once I get babysitters lined up for the interval between then and Rob coming home, I start to feel guilty that I'm actually (c) faking being ill in order to make Rob do all the DIY.

Good grief.

However, one of the people who came to babysit me had news of a virus with these symptoms, so then I was able to go to bed. And I've got food, which helps a lot.

We need to get the house-chaos under control so I can stop tipping over into crazy again.

Comments

[sfred]

Thinking of you, with sympathy.

[piqueen.livejournal.com]

Good grief indeed. I was going to write 'you are allowed to be ill' but I think it's more accurate to say 'you don't have magical healing properties and can't avoid illness any more than the rest of us can'. I hope you feel better soon. Oh and until you do - please give yourself a break.

[mrs-redboots.livejournal.com]

Alas, you are not Supermum! But I'm glad to hear it's a virus - I've been having the feeling-faint thing (particularly at bedtime, when I lie down) and assumed it was sinus-related, but it's now stopped (I think), so hope it was a virus!

[rachel cotton (from livejournal.com)]

If it helps, I've had exactly the same virus. It's odd as for me I only had a slight temperature, no fever, no snot (although I lost my sense of smell and taste) but felt exactly the same as when I have flu. So exhausted and grumpy and ill. Of course that made me think I was just putting it on, and the only thing that helped was that the children go t the same bug and were unexplainably FOUL for about 5 days each before suddenly being fine.

Glad you've been able to get to bed and eat food. Wish food for you today too, and taking meds xxxx

[pauamma]

What they said!

[merryhouse.livejournal.com]

In fact, given that you lose weight at the drop of a hat you probably avoid illness rather less than many of us. You have no reserves, sweetie!