About my name

Someone else's journal pointed me at Kabalarian name analysis. It seems accurate to me, but I may be imbuing it with horoscope-like thingummy and reading accuracy into vagueness.

Your name of Ailbhe has created a practical, responsible, stable nature, and you desire to direct the efforts of others rather than to take order or ask permission. You have a determined, self-reliant, capable nature and resent any interference, although in your desire to help you are inclined to become involved in the lives and decisions of other people. You like to make your own decisions and to be the master of your domain. You feel a limitation in your own expression when it is necessary to reach another through tact and understanding. Although you are honest and fair, a directness in speech is a source of much consternation to you, and you often regret what you say. You also have a tendency to worry. It causes you to be too serious, and interferes with happiness and relaxation that comes with naturalness of expression. Health weaknesses centre in the head appearing as headaches, head colds, and eye, teeth, ear, or sinus problems.

Procrastination

I should be studying. Instead, I'm fiddling about with LJ update scripts. Perhaps I should write a complete client to sit in my website for me.

Perhaps I should study.

Further tales of school

I think she [the headmistress] tried very hard, really. She did allow me to come to school and attend only those classes that I felt able to attend, and sit the rest of the time in the hall with or without a book of my choice. The only reason it didn't work is because other teachers would harass me as I was sitting there, and I couldn't face up to saying "I am being treated differently and you will learn to cope" to them.

I wrote that earlier, in a comment. I have just remembered that the one time I explained to a teacher that the reason I wasn't in a class was that the head and I had found that the only way to get me to come to school at all (since I was so depressed that getting out of bed was a serious effort) was to ensure that I didn't have to do anything I didn't want to while I was there. That teacher told me that she, too, was depressed, and that I should just learn to live with it and pull my socks up, etc. She has since died; I've heard rumours that it was suicide. Ho hum.

Done to Do

I have done:

1. Two loads of laundry
2. Two hours of study (ie one full chapter, which gets me back on schedule - these chapters don't take nearly as long as the guide says they do, but they are tough)
3. Tidied dining room
4. Washed up
5. Made potato salad and hardboiled eggs for tomorrow's lunch. Also jelly, which is one of the best things about not being vegetarian any more. That and sausages. It's almost worth the guilt.
6. Eaten real food; rice-cakes, a hardboiled egg, and half a pear (it was over-ripe and not very pleasant)

I have yet to do:

1. Have a bath
2. Get hold of the plumber
3. More study, but not today
4. Buy Rob some more socks, and some cufflinks
5. Go to dancing class tonight
6. Learn to quash the urge to trace people who leave anonymous comments. They presumably don't want to let me know who they are for a reason, and just because I can find out doesn't mean I should. (Query: has anyone ever had a totally anonymous comment left? I mean, one that they really didn't know who wrote it?)
7. Find another book.