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[ailbhe]

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[br3nda]

*hugs*

and a kitten photo:

[kalmn]

i see you, hon. *hug*

[supermouse]

I really wish I'd seen this at the time and not so long after the event.

[submarine_bells]

Ditto. It's probably a bit late, but would a phone call from Australia help? I don't have your phone number, but if you want to email it to me at myrealname at chromatic-hyphen-dragonfly dot comme, I'd be more than happy to call you up and natter about anything you like. It's the least I can to for someone who has been known to mail me jaffacakes. :-)))

[datagoddess.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, what can I do to help you?

[ailbhe]

Wanting to help me helps. I am the-s-word again and I don't know what to do.

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

Phone your nice crisis team and ask them what to do.

[ailbhe]

Left them voicemail.

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

Could you paint a canvass whilst you wait for a call back?

[ailbhe]

No, I can't do it while feeling wretched. But there's one all set up on the easel for as soon as I feel the urge tomorrow.

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

Well, it's good to know there is one set up.

perhaps what you are doing, keeping in touch with us online, is the the best thing right now.

When did you last eat, and is Rob asleep?

[ailbhe]

Rob, bless his antibacterial cotton-mix socks, is not asleep, technically, but is sort of falling asleep on his feet. He's up since 6am or so. But he's not going to bed yet, he has left voicemail for me on the scary voicemail machine on the crisis line.

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

What a wonderful man. And that makes you pretty special, that he keeps taking such good care of you.

And food? Fluid?

[ailbhe]

He's given me a bowl of nuts and a chamomile tea and he's going ot bed now. He has his phone with him if I need him.

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

Oh good. Do keep nibbling those nuts. Astrid? Asleep with you or elsewhere, or awake!

[ailbhe]

Asleep on the sofa beside me. I will phone Rob when I am ready to go to bed and he will carry her up.

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

Sounds like this is all very well thought through and such.

It's very annoying when you get an ansa phone on crisis, but they usually phone as soon as they can.

Just as long as you thinking that you are coping with it, doesn't mean you don't need it. :-)

[the-changeling.livejournal.com]

.. is available. :-)

Do you need some diazepam?

[ailbhe]

I took 5mg already and only have 5mg left.

[miriammoules.livejournal.com]

*sends help spiritually if nothing else*

Praying for you lovie.

Do you have a Crisisline number? or email jo@samaritans.org?

[kaberett.livejournal.com]

As would I.

Here is a poem (http://www.rjgeib.com/thoughts/geese/geese.html), and here is another (http://colorfulflowers.blogspot.com/2005/04/summer-morning.html). I am sorry that I do not know you well enough to choose them better.

[dangerpudding.livejournal.com]

Anything I can do from here is yours. (Including phone calls - to you or others for you, skype, IM, lovely thoughts, etc)

[mrs-warwick.livejournal.com]

what can I do?

[ailbhe]

I don't know.

[st-lemur.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[cyan-blue.livejournal.com]

Hugs, hon - we're listening.

[deborah_c]

What can I do? If talking would help, my phone numbers are here.

[allyphoe.livejournal.com]

I'm too far away to be able to do anything useful, I'm afraid. :(

When I was suicidal and wanted to be that way, I don't remember anything that helped me. Going to sleep sometimes helped, if it was the time of day that sleeping would be appropriate, which the timestamp suggests might be for you.

When I was not particularly suicidal, but was having disturbing intrusive thoughts (so anytime anything went the slightest bit wrong, the voice in my head would say "oh, you should just kill yourself, then"), I found that saying "that's not an acceptable choice; pick something else" every single time was helpful over the long run.

[talimena.livejournal.com]

For what it's worth, I offer moral support and affection from across the ocean.

[nex0s.livejournal.com]

I just opened my iChat if you like. I'm nex0snow on AOL and zenvodunista on Gmail. I have Skype too if you need that instead.

*hug*
N.

[kcobweb.livejournal.com]

I am also (I suspect) too far away to help - but I am thinking good thoughts your way.

[thealmondtree.livejournal.com]

I hope that by now you have heard back from the crisis team. But know that I too am thinking of you and holding you in prayer.

[simplykimberly.livejournal.com]

I, too, am too far away to offer much besides links to kitten pics and videos.

In case that helps:

(http://www.flickr.com/photos/kimberlyjennery/5183927986/)
(click through for MANY more kitten pics, of course :) )

and

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnboEKfiPA4

(hugs) if you want them, and thinking good thoughts your way, too! Good for you for asking for help!

[epi-lj.livejournal.com]

If there's anything I can do to help other than to want to, I'd be happy to and do want to.

[flybabydizzy.livejournal.com]

sending hugs and support.
On the other end of IM and 07704178025 - I can phone you back - oodles of minutes, and not sleeping, so not going to bed

[rosefox]

<3 <3 <3

I'm glad to see your later post and it looks like the crisis has passed, but if another one comes up, you can email or Gchat me at rosejasperfox@gmail, or call/text +1 646 287 2437, and if I am awake and near a communicating device I will be glad to spend some time distracting you from the unhappy parts of your brain. (When I'm not free to talk, I turn my communicating devices off, so you do not ever need to worry that you're interrupting me or imposing on me by calling/texting/IMing; if I'm on IM or my phone is on I am by definition free to talk.)

You are wonderful and are doing wonderful things to take care of yourself. Thank you for reaching out.

You are loved.

(This userpic is one of my grandmother's paintings of Co. Cork. It's tagged "peace". I hope you enjoy the colors.)

[kiya]

All I have is "Remember to breathe."

So I offer you that.

Also, "Please."

[treadpath.livejournal.com]

I wish there was some way to help!!! I am quite far away from you. I can tell you I am thinking about you and I look forward to hearing about your painting and what Linnea is going to do tomorrow and what Emer is going to say about it and what a sweet baby Astrid is. I look forward to your next poem. I wonder if you're going to have nice weather tomorrow and could possibly go for a walk. I hope you have something to eat that is comforting and tastes good and that the sounds your house makes when everyone is quiet are reassuring. I hope Rob tells you something funny and it makes you think of something else funny and you get to laugh twice. I hope I meet you someday for real. :)

[widgetfox.livejournal.com]

:-) you're asking for help, so hard, very much kudos.

Sending all possible good thoughts and prayers and hopes that the crisis team are able to manage the crisis.

[pashazade.livejournal.com]

Asking for help is brave and right. I know that I can tell you that it's brave till I'm blue in the face and you will not believe me, because I have been on the inside of this. I am going to message you with my phone number.

[batswing.livejournal.com]

I was asleep and didn't see this but I'm so happy to see you asking for hep, and the evidence that you're still here this morning makes me very happy too, because you matter. :)

[mrs-redboots.livejournal.com]

I was asleep when you posted this.

Do other people help - I'm too far away to come and sit with you, but do know that I would if I lived nearer. Maybe you have a friend who would come and just be there?

Or does it help when the children need you, or does that make it worse? I know in my bad days if I absolutely had to do something, I could, and in fact was the better for it.

[quentinwrites.livejournal.com]

Another person who was sleeping when you posted this, but if I can be any help I can PM you my mobile number, then if you need help in the middle of the night you have someone to phone? I don't mind being woken up if I can be helpful. :o)

[jexia]

If it helps to have someone in a different timezone on Skype (for phone or for chat), I'm donnelle.belanger-ta

[irishkate.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to have missed all this and been no help. My only excuse is "Ditto" - I am/have been going through much similar and struggling. Haven't been keeping up with Lj.

Hang in there.