Not so good

I saw the consultant today. I may be partially fixed in 4-6 months. Some things may be unfixable; I need to see another consultant to see what is and isn't possible.

The good news is that I may not need a general if I'm willing to consent to a spinal, which I think I am. I managed an epidural for the birth, after all.

If I wasn't breastfeeding, I might be able to have the first op earlier, but no guarantees; as I am, I need to artificially adjust my oestregen levels to improve my chances of healing after the op.

I'm pretty devastated by this. I know worse things are happening to other people elsewhere, but what's happening to me is not very nice, on a personal level, and I'm not happy about it at all.

Please, universe, can it all stop now?