Not such a good day

[ailbhe]

Linnea and I did the housework, as usual, and settled down with our snack to watch Teletubbies at 10:00. I intended to take her swimming and then to the NCT coffee afternoon.

But at about 10:10 the Patient Advice and Liaison Services called, and because Linnea was in front of the TV, I spent 45 minutes talking about the labour, birth and its aftermath. And now I'm low.

Linnea is napping. In total she watched 2 hours' TV and then we played and had lunch for two hours. I spent the rest of her TV time online talking to people until I stopped crying and shaking and generally wanting to curl into a ball and never come out.

The nappy bucket is almost full. She's very productive today. We had a great time doing the washing up and hanging laundry earlier, and she was very brave about the hoover. She's also very cuddly and keen on putting nappies on her teddies. And I almost slapped her when she ran away mid-nappy-change. I didn't slap her, of course, I just almost did.

I am fragile today. I hope she manages a good long nap. She's on a quilt on the floor in the library, with the curtains closed.

Comments

[barakta]

Ouch. Thinking of you and hoping Linnea sleeps a while too.

[rivka.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm so sorry. Hang in there.

Drugs

[ailbhe]

Whisky and soda helped a lot. I still have the little bottle of Diazepam, too, in case of emergencies. I think if I *really* lost the ability to cope while I was home alone, I'd take it, because I don't *know* if it would affect my ability to be responsible, and I do know alcohol does. Alcohol is safer for breastfeeding though.

[helenprev.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

*A few more hugs for good measure*

And I hope she napped for ages.

Napping

[ailbhe]

Over two hours.

[k425.livejournal.com]

{hugs}

[shinydan.livejournal.com]

*further hugs*

sDan

[zerbey.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, parenting is hard work and you're not alone! I had to spend the morning listening to Thomas's "interesting new word" (at full volume... in the food store). Not the kind of word any child should know, let alone a 2 year old. I just have to keep reminding myself it's a phase.

[djelibeybi.livejournal.com]

Big virtual hugs from Bristol.

Enjoy your whiskey, then go over some of your previous entries to LJ. And the responses. Remind yourself just how wonderful each day can be.

Then go right ahead and enjoy today too.