Current Affairs

[ailbhe]

OK, I try not to do this because I hate discussing it, but here we go. On Sue Axon's "Right to Know" bid, I said the following in a community earlier today:

I find the thought that my daughter might do this - get pregnant and have an abortion, without telling me - terrifying and upsetting. But if that's what she felt she needed to do to feel safe then that's my own damn fault for not realising something was wrong, and taking her right to feel safe away from her is not the way to solve it.

I'm crying typing this. It's a terrible, terrible thing to contemplate. But she is a person, all 18 months of her, and she has the right to feel safe. It's my job as her mother to give her all the safety I can find. Even from myself.

Even from myself.

This is too upsetting, I can't say any more.

Also, I need to write down all the stuff I have to discuss with the consultant on Monday. And we have no printer. Gah. I am finding it very very hard to think about, also. I would greatly appreciate other people telling me what they remember me wanting to talk about.

And if we could do something to my fear-and-guilt reaction every time the phone rings, that would be good too.