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ailbhe ([personal profile] ailbhe) wrote2009-05-05 09:06 pm

Things I Think I Believe

I believe it would have taken me much longer to post this if it hadn't been for the peculiarly liberating Dreamwidth Effect.

I don't think I believe in God, singular, plural, or pantheistic. I used to think about it and I was never sure. Now I think it's not important whether I believe in gods or not. Much more important is what I do and how I do it, what I am and how I am it.

And so I try not to do more harm than I can help. I try not to help less than I am able. I try very hard not to walk on by, though I need to work on that - there was a recent incident in a crowded train where I ought to have spoken out and didn't, because I didn't want to wake the baby asleep on my lap.

I try to make the world a nicer place, both the parts of it which benefit me and my loved ones and larger, further-reaching parts of it, even parts which will benefit only strangers. Around me, my friends and community also try to make the world a better place, in small and large ways. If I sit down and think about the numbers of teachers, childcare workers, doctors, social workers, healthcare workers, police, community volunteer workers and so on I know, I get slightly surprised, every time.

I try to encourage communities to form, or grow, or keep going. This started as part of the "making sure my children have access to a social network" thing but seems to be an important part of me, and if I think back to it I can see that I have always had social groups of one kind or another (where "always" starts age 14 or so) and have often put in considerable effort to maintain them.

A lot of my beliefs can be summarised with varying degrees of triteness in Pratchett quotes. "Evil is treating people as things," for a start. "What has he done to me, that I should hurt him so?" for another.

I like the idea that not hastening the extinction of things - flowers, trees, animals, ecosystems - is worth working for. I like the idea that everyone is slightly responsible for everyone else. I want to live in a world where that's true.

So the closest I come to believing in gods is that part of everything which is precious. Life, and all the messiness that comes with it including death, is probably the closest I can come to my god.

But all this might be hormonal nonsense. I'll never know.
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[personal profile] pauamma 2009-05-06 01:39 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm curious: what Dreamwidth effect are you referring to, and how is it liberating?
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[personal profile] aquaeri 2009-05-09 12:03 am (UTC)(link)
This is quite close to how I feel, or wish I'd feel more often. Thank you for writing it.

[identity profile] biascut.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 08:18 pm (UTC)(link)
This is really beautiful.
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[personal profile] taimatsu 2009-05-05 10:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I think you make a really amazing, wonderful amount of sense. I wish I had the guts to think about things to this depth at the moment.

[identity profile] browngirl.livejournal.com 2009-05-05 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
This is well and beautifully said.
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[personal profile] sfred 2009-05-06 06:30 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you for this. It's very well-expressed, and I think gives words to what a lot of us feel when it would be dishonest to say we believe in God but want to convey something that might fall into the same category.
I posted an attempt at getting my beliefs down in writing a while ago, and will link to it here when I'm not posting from my phone (which is very fiddly).
I'm part of two real-life religious or semi-religious communities and one online one, and it felt important to me to verbalise how much this does or doesn't represent the reality of me.
Just to be nosey - you don't have to answer - are you still going to Quaker meetings?

Edit: here's my post: http://yoyoangel.livejournal.com/16860.html
Edited 2009-05-06 07:35 (UTC)
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Re: Things I Think I Believe

[identity profile] pir-anha.livejournal.com 2009-05-07 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
hormones have nothing to do with it. i feel it too, and i am luckily not about the hormones anymore. :)