Emer is much better today

[ailbhe]

She stayed in bed until almost 11, because she's tired and slightly hurting, but she asked me more about my time with measles and whooping cough and then gleefully said "I won't get those, because I had the majection."

So she's coming to accept it, though last night she also said in a very reassuring tone "I am always ok when you hurt me," which was, well, brilliant. Yay. I would have laughed at that except I was too busy being punched in the gut.

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Re: Unsolicited rambling, please forgive if it's unwanted

[ailbhe]

It's ok, she doesn't read this.

Re: Unsolicited rambling, please forgive if it's unwanted

[cabbagemedley.livejournal.com]

Ack, I didn't mean that I think you're sitting down with her and asking her to reassure you that you're not an abuser or anything. :( I just meant that being OK with the action you took is good for both of you, not just a way of making you more comfortable. (Though that is important.)

Re: Unsolicited rambling, please forgive if it's unwanted

[ailbhe]

Heh, I can't be that person from here. Maybe one day I won't second-guess the times I make my children cry on purpose, but really my history of abuse and mental illness makes me wonder whether that would be wise. I *have* been abusive to the children in the past (but I've had the contraceptive implant removed now so perhaps it won't happen again) and there's always that generational cycle...

Mind you, I didn't apologise to Emer this time, just sympathised. A lot. And cried where she couldn't hear me.