I'm not quite getting it. In what way is your food intake inadequate? I first read this as a "I just can't get enough calories" post, but read that way it TBH just doesn't make sense. If calories were your only consideration, it's not clear why you'd need to cut a bagel in half, and not clear why one of the older girls couldn't bring you a bagel on demand. Sounds as though there's something more interesting going on here. Is it that you feel you need more protein, rather than more calories, i.e. the bagel is only useful once you've cut it in half and put something inside? Or is it more about appetite, e.g. that you could grab a plain bagel and gnaw it but the idea just doesn't appeal, maybe because you want to feel that you or someone have enough time to take care of you that you get "proper meals"? Or what? I think the right thing to do might depend on what the real issue is, and that's not quite clear, to me at any rate.