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[ailbhe]

Does one ever grow accustomed to looking into the eyes of one's baby and seeing a huge great grown-up GIRL? In all her beautiful self-made glory I never knew I would see so much a whole entire person - more entire than I have ever felt - looking out at me from a face I know considerably better than my own, because I've never spent as long looking at my face as I have at hers.

This evening at dinner, I saw the woman Linnea will be. Just for a minute, but there she was, just as the baby is still there, but hard to see all the time.

I am awed.

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I look at the woman who breezes in now and again, and can still sometimes see my baby.
And I do still want to hold her hand and tell her to put her coat on.